Today I am sad and I haven’t blogged in a really really long time and that is because something kinda bad happened to me a few weeks ago…
I broke up with my boyfriend of two years a short while ago and I was absolutely devastated. As this was my first relationship I feel like it has affected me a lot more than another relationship break-up would. However, after doing a lot of thinking about this things that have happened to me over the past few years I decided that I would try and take something positive from this whole situation.
Over the past two years I have met so many amazing people (including my ex), I have got over halfway through my degree which I never thought I would manage and I have grown so much as a person because of all the good and bad things that have happened to me.
Although I am still very, very sad about losing one of the most important people in my life I am doing ok. I still miss him everyday and I wish I could go back and change everything that happened but I am a firm believer that everything in life happens for a reason. Did I love him with all of my heart? Yes. Did I see myself spending the rest of my life with this person? Absolutely. But was it meant to be? Clearly not. For whatever reason our relationship had to end. I still don’t know why but I know that although at the time it felt like the end of the world and that I would never find anyone who I could love as much as him, I am still so young. I have my whole life ahead of me and so does he. Maybe some day our paths will cross but for now our stories must drift apart.
I would never wish this pain that I am feeling upon my worst enemy because losing someone who is such a big part of your life just leaves this black, empty space in your heart. We need to fill that space with positivity and love for what we haven’t lost. I am in no way saying that the person can be replaced but what is past is past and we cannot change it. I still have the most amazing friends who have helped me so much with everything. My family love me, I’m doing so well in a degree that I was convinced I was going to fail at the beginning of the year.
Going through break-ups are never going to be easy but with time and surrounding yourself with the people you love you can and will move on. I still have such a long way to go but I now at least feel confident that the world is not against me and I am on the right path.